... that is the question....
There just isn't a whole lot to update on...lol.
I know, I've been pathetically quiet lately. I am just working on getting adjusted to the changes and trying to figure out where I belong and when I belong there. I know its silly, this is the family that Master and I have created so of course I belong anywhere He is, but its weird living on a different schedule than the rest of the house. There doesn't seem to be any real time to talk about anything other than the kids... and on the rare occasions when we do have time I can't seem to think of anything to say. I don't want to ramble about stupid things because I don't want to waste what little time we get together talking about things that don't actually matter. That seems pretty silly to me too because any conversation is probably better than none.
There isn't any spanking news to update on because that hasn't happened in weeks. I could really use a good spanking, but there doesn't seem to be any time for that and I haven't misbehaved so there isn't any punishment coming. I refuse to misbehave just to get the spanking I think I need. I don't like that idea at all and I do my best to keep that from happening.
There's no playtime to update on because there hasn't been time for us to do that either. I miss it... a whole lot... and I am finding myself worrying that maybe since Kit is here and much more accessible maybe I'm not needed that way. Logically I know that our only issue is scheduling and timing, but emotions get in the way of logic occasionally.
Aside from that there isn't really anything else to update on. Things aren't going badly at all... I'm just feeling pretty lonely during this adjustment. Master has done everything He can to make sure that I am not alone... He has done His absolute best to be awake when I get home in the mornings, and He has been very loving and demonstrative because He knows this is hard for me. I don't think its all that easy for Him either.
I appreciate that a lot because I know He is thinking of me and doing His best to make sure I know I am loved. I love this man with all I am and I know that love is returned. I have never questioned that... but I still feel pretty lonely and out of the loop sometimes. I know that this is a result of my own emotions, and not a result of how I am treated. I need to work on that, and work on centering my energy again. As easy as it is to allow a spanking to center my energy for me, I need to work on alternatives. Thats my new goal for myself...
Ok, thats about it for now!!
