MAN MEAT

Is there anything more amazing than a hard, smooth cock? Maybe I am horny. Maybe I am really missing Steven. Maybe both.

I can't stop thinking about his cock. Last time we were together, I had wanted to give him a blow job to completion. Not sure what happened (okay, I know what happened...we fucked...) but I didn't get to.

I just found myself cleaning my kitchen and daydreaming about it. Thinking about how he feels in my mouth. Thinking about swallowing his cum. Thinking about how much I love sucking on him. Breathing him in. Savoring him.

Penis. Cock. Dick. MAN MEAT. Call it what you want.

I want it. In my mouth. Soon.

Back to cleaning the kitchen...

MAKING LOVE

I have sex on the brain. IMAGINE THAT!

Steven and I have a hotel date tomorrow night, and I can't wait! We always have great sex, whether it is as vanilla as vanilla gets, or down right naughty and freaky, I love it all.

Something is up with me though...could be the feel of Fall in the air, could be any number of things. Whatever it is, I can't stop thinking about what I want to do tomorrow night! I was out to lunch with my sons today, and then a quick trip to Target, and I was OBSESSING over thoughts of what tomorrow night will be like. "No honey, we aren't buying a toy gun that shoots marshmallows" (mmmmm...I want to sit on his face tomorrow night) "Do we need toilet paper?" (maybe he will bite me a little...I do like that...) "Let's get in line over here." (MAN I WANT TO FUCK HIM SO BAD!)

Yes...that was my thought pattern.

We talked on the phone quite a bit today, and he knows I am HUNGRY for him. I told him I wanted to play with fisting some more tomorrow...he promised to lick and suck and tease and get me good and ready for it. I have images of the time we did it...the vibrator on my clit, his hand in me...mmmmm...

I really want to spend time on his cock too. In my mouth. Maybe he wants to try that little vibrator around (or in) his ass again? Lots of lube on his balls...my hands swirling around them as I suck on his hardness.

I am also in a photography mood. I have visions of some really sexy pictures of him...and I want to play with black and white. Sometimes taking the color out really emphasises the subject...I love taking pictures of him...of us...

Porn sounds fun too. Maybe we will find a little to watch online...just for kicks. It isn't always that arousing to me, but sometimes it is. It just depends. I wouldn't mind watching some together, we haven't done much lately.

I want every position tomorrow. I keep thinking about being on top...we had some good, intense sex earlier this week where I was on top, but laying on him...my fingers working my clit while he slid in and out...it ended in a very intense orgasm. The eye contact was great. I want some hard fucking from behind...I am thinking about bent over the bathroom counter so Steve can watch in the mirror. I want to be on top some. I want him on top. I want some slow, soft, heavy eye contact and sweet conversation sex too.

I want to lay next to Steve, and run my fingers all over his neck and back. Gently rubbing his body. Sometimes when I do this, I feel as if I am transferring the love that I feel for him through my fingertips and into his body. That sometimes it is more meaningful to touch him like I love him than telling him I love him.

I never grasped the term "MAKING LOVE" completely until now. All of a sudden I get it. That is what we do! Us! Steven and Missy! Making love! I get it I get it I get it! I want to shout it to the neighbors...the cars on the road...my employees...my cats...the people at Starbucks..."Can I get a iced grande nonfat mocha, and OH BY THE WAY I NOW KNOW WHY PEOPLE CALL IT MAKING LOVE!"

Ahhhhh....what a wonderful feeling...details of tomorrow night will surely be posted...I can't wait to kiss my sexy man and to wear us both out sexually! Is that possible? Hehe...

Life is good.

20 THINGS ABOUT STEVEN THAT MAKE ME SMILE

What a weekend! I am still recovering! We met up Saturday night and had dinner, drinks, and then stopped off at the Swinger's Club.

We wandered (as usual), observed a freaky girl masturbating in front of people, watched a bit of porn, and then went and watched a couple have sex. It was a turn on, except the guy couldn't keep it up, so it didn't last too long. SO...we went into a room to have our own fun, and left the door open for a few observers...it was a fast but intense show...blow job, sex from behind, I had a nice orgasm, and then turned around to catch Steve's load in my mouth. I believe there was a slight applause!

After that we met up with two friends of mine (FROM CHURCH!!) and had more drinks, and danced. Well, I wasn't in much of a dancing mood, but Steve and the friends were, so that was cool. AND THEY LOVED HIM! Within minutes they were whispering about how cute he was and how perfect we were together, and I was like....I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW!!! Yes, these girls are aware of my situation (our situation) but both agree that I need to be happy, both know that my husband has agreed to turn a blind eye to anything, and they both can see that Steven and I are a great fit for each other.

Well...it was all fine and dandy until I got sick. Yep...one shot too many. I will spare you the details, but let's just say that you know a guy is a keeper when he deals with your puking ass, and stays sweet and loving the whole time. Seriously, Steven took such good care of me...and while I am mortified that I let it happen, it is nice to know that we can be that way with each other.

So...it took me all day Sunday to recover, but it was worth it overall. We had a great time. I am in such a good place right now. Steven and I had lunch together in the park today, it was just so nice to have that quiet, mellow TOGETHER time.

I have been really reflective lately. I don't think that I was in a good place most of the summer. I feel like I was going through the motions. Being a mom, working, keeping things up around the house. Volunteering time, trips, weddings, etc. Underneath this though I was in a hard place. I wouldn't say a dark place, but a hard place. A place where I couldn't see the end of anything. Where everything seemed untouchable. Things were dangling in front of me, but I couldn't reach out far enough to grab them.

I am BACK. And that is a great feeling. To have the kids back in school, to have a routine again, to feel like I can DO THIS. I can get through what I need to get through in the next day. Week. Month. Year. I am strong. I am loved. I can conquer anything! I have goals. Little goals and huge goals.

So...here is a little list of things about Steven that make me smile...I am just so damned happy right now that it is almost obnoxious!

1. His sense of humor.
2. The way he kisses me.
3. The low growl noise he makes when he is sexually devouring me.
4. The way his arms feel around me.
5. Our inside jokes. There are lots of them.
6. The fact that he likes that indent that is between the nose and upper lip on me.
7. When he breathes me in.
8. When he tacks his last name/initial on to my name.
9. The fact that he has a voyeuristic / exhibitionist side.
10. My friends adore him.
11. His lips. Ohhhh they make me HOT.
12. Lunch at the park with him. Love this!
13. The silly things we do that are just US.
14. The feel of our skin touching.
15. The fact that he always drives and always opens doors. I like how he looks driving my car.
16. How he is EXACTLY what I need.
17. The fact that we have so much in common.
18. The fact that we are rubbing off on each other, and acquiring each other's likes.
19. How passionate he is.
20. We are perfect for each other.

I hope you all had a great weekend!

THINKING...AND IT EXCITES ME!

I woke up an hour ago, and while listening to the rain from the coziness of my bed, I started thinking.

Thinking about how filled with hope that I am right now. Thinking about how bright the future seems.

Thinking that the rain, and beginnings of Fall in the air are symbolic of another season that Steven and I will be together.

Thinking that when this started, it was Winter. Thinking that the 7th of September marks 7 months of this roller coaster ride that I am so very thankful for.

Thinking that when I saw him last night, he looked super yummy.

Thinking that when we walked on OUR BEACH in the dark last night, holding hands, that I wanted time to stop.

Thinking that when when I was on my knees in the sand, the light drizzle of rain falling, the sound of the water rippling, and the warmth and hardness of his cock in my mouth that life seemed pretty much perfect in that moment.

Thinking that when the rain started coming down harder, that moving under some trees was a good idea.

Thinking that being bent over, hands against the moss on an old tree, a branch tangled in my hair, and feeling Steven slide into me was amazing. It's a height thing.

Thinking that I can't WAIT to be US. Totally and completely US. To be as intertwined with each other's lives as you can possibly be.

Thinking that weekly we become more a part of the real lives that the other leads. We learn more. Feel more. Think more. Plan more. Share more. Experience more.

Thinking that I am head over heels in love with Steven.

Thinking that I am pretty darn fortunate.

Thinking that I am excited for our future and what it holds.

I HAVE BLOW JOBS ON THE BRAIN...AGAIN

There is something therapeutic about giving a blow job.

It can be as relaxing to me as anything.

To have someone at their most vulnerable, most intimate, most open is something that I think can be often overlooked. Yet, when you have your mouth around a cock, that is exactly what it is. He is trusting you. Sharing himself with you. Allowing himself to connect with you in one of the most intimate ways.

Yes, I realize that there are *other* aspects about it that men like. However, I am talking about ME and what I get out of it.

When I have heard girlfriends talk about not liking to perform oral sex on their man, I am baffled. WHY WHY WHY girls? What the HELL? You are missing out.

I was 13 when I gave my first blow job. Alarming, yes, I know. However, it was something that I immediately enjoyed, and has been something that I have continued to enjoy. On some level, it is sexually gratifying for me. No, there isn't an orgasm that comes from it, but most of us recognize that sometimes it isn't about the orgasm. I don't give them expecting something in return, and head has never been a reward to any man in my life for something well done. I overheard a couple bargaining at a party a few years ago...if he weeded the garden for an hour she would give him a blow job. WHAT THE HELL? Really? Is this really something that women think of as a REWARD? I don't get, nor will I ever get, the SEX AS LEVERAGE theory. If I am in a relationship with you, sex is sex. You get it. No matter what. I can be mad, tired, angry, hurt, but withholding sexual activity is not an option. And 99% of the time it can help the issue at hand anyway.

Swallowing has never been an optional activity for me either. Why WOULDN'T you swallow? Would you expect a guy to go down on you and experience NONE OF YOUR TASTE? No. Because he doesn't have a choice. I had a friend once tell me that she couldn't stand the taste of cum. S-E-L-F-I-S-H. Trust me, no two men taste alike. And I would be lying if I said that they were all equally as tasty. HOWEVER, different men kiss different. Different men have sex different. Different men perform oral on women different. SO YES, THEY TASTE DIFFERENT. To me, part of the thrill is relishing their unique flavor...and if it isn't a GREAT one, it is still pleasurable to me from all other aspects. SO WHAT if you take time doing something you enjoy and have to take a quick swallow of something that isn't amazing tasting? Deal. With. It.

The first time I was asked "Do you swallow?" I was truly perplexed. I looked at the guy and said "I didn't know there was another way." And I was SERIOUS. Yes, I was young, but still. Really? We have options? Bitch PLEASEEEEEEEEE.

Suck. It. Up.

Literally.

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