Today was my 6 week pp check up. Everything went fine and I got the clearance for all things. This was extremely exciting, seeing as how Master said that we would have some real intense play and spanking either tonight or tomorrow night. I was a very very very happy girl.
And then it happened.
My period showed up, about 20 minutes ago in full swing. I've been spotting for 2 days now and was just praying that it would hold out. I am now sitting here, doing my best not to cry because something I wanted so much has to be postponed... again. Sure, we could play while I'm on my period, we've done it before... but it limits a lot. The cramping is already starting and suddenly my back is killing me. I've never been known to have easy periods.
I just wish I understood why fate seems to toy with me so much. I know, that's really an emo statement, but right now I just feel sad. I feel like everytime I really get my hopes up about something, it gets dashed away from me. I know its silly (hence the title of this post), but right now I feel stupid for ever believing that it would actually happen as planned.
I just want to curl up somewhere and have someone hold me.
