Last night Master arranged for us to have some extended time... as a "re-intruduction" to hard play. He had really toned down our play during the pregnancy and the "after baby" period. I went months without a good spanking, and it was showing in all ways. I was emotionally and spiritually off, and my attitude was creeping up to unacceptable levels.
On a small aside... why is it that when a submissive/slave/spankee (whatever title you prefer) goes awhile without a spanking she starts to taunt her spanker without even realizing it?
Anyways... the first spanking of the evening was designed to make me cry. The problem that was usually run into is that I never want to cry during a spanking. The harder He spanks the more I brace myself and grit my teeth. After a hundred or so swats, He started taunting me. He used His "mean voice" and started saying things that He knew would make me cry, basically daring me not to. As soon as that started the tears started. That did not make Him stop, however... only encouraged Him to go on. He stopped for a minute, pulled me close and let me cry. I started calming down and was really relieved that it was over. Not even seconds after I believed it was over, He decided that I wasn't crying enough and started again. The tears were worse this time because I was completely caught off guard. When He stopped and pulled me close again I had a bit of a hard time calming down because I wasn't sure if it was really over, or if He was going to start again. Once I realized that it was really over, I wasn't entirely sure how I felt about how it went. After a lot of love and snuggles, I realized that I felt a lot better. I was really cold (which always happens after intense spankings) but so much happier.
After a lot of snuggles and a break, we started part two of the spanking. This part of the spanking started out fairly mild and built up in intensity. I think Master said that this part ended up being about 1300 swats. He switched out using various implements, and to be honest I don't remember too much of this one. I found my happy place and was pretty much oblivious to anything. The same implements and intensity that had me in tears a few minutes before was now not phasing me and just allowing me to drift further and further into my happy place.
There were things that happened after He stopped the spanking, but I really don't recall much of it. He wants me to work on trying to remember it, but that may take some more time...lol.
After a 3 hour break Master sent me for a shower with Kit, and then He did some various decorative bondage and took some pictures. I'll post those soon, but I haven't seen any of them yet and need His approval. They will be coming in some form though.
After that we did some tied to the bed bondage and teasing. It was all really nice. I think it is going to make tomorrow's transition a lot easier.
Tomorrow...
I go back to work.
Tomorrow night, around 10:30, I will be sitting at my desk for the first time since July. I'm not going to lie and say I'm looking forward to it, but I know Master has plans to keep us connected because we had a small problem with that even before I left for my leave of absence. I really appreciate that... and I've told Him that but He just gives me a weird look and reminds me that I am really important to Him and that our relationship is really important to Him and that He would never let us loose our connection if He could help it.
Speaking of our relationship, we are about a month away from the 7th anniversary of my collar. Seven years ago He offered me His collar and I happily accepted. I could keep rambling on about that, but that post will be coming in about a month...lol. Just know that 7 years later we are still going strong!
