I love when sex feels so completely amazing that you can't hold still. Last night I could not hold still. Steven's hard cock was filling me up, and I was squirming here, there, and everywhere. I wanted to keep feeling, keep cumming, keep enjoying. I was moving this way, then that way, then making sure every inch was deep inside of me. I wanted to touch him everywhere, and be touched everywhere. I wanted to feel submissive, yet in control. I wanted it soft and sweet, yet rough and demanding. I COULD NOT HOLD STILL. And when he came, it was equally as satisfying to me as all of my orgasms combined.
Sometimes you don't know what you need until after you get it.
Here is what I needed last night:
- A trip to Target with Steven. We split up so we weren't seen together...it was in a risky place. However...I love Target and I love Steven. Great combo.
- Dinner at Red Lobster. Again high risk. And oh-so yummy. And my margarita was amazing.
- Cuddling in our hotel room while watching Biggest Loser. MY FAVORITE SHOW!!
- I needed to cry. I thought that I couldn't cry anymore. Telling my kids that my husband and I are separating was THE WORST thing I have EVER done as a mom. HORRIBLE. I will never, ever be able to erase the image of my oldest child's face as he absorbed the news. And so when I was laying with Steven, rubbing his back, breathing him in, I lost it. Completely lost it. Sobbing in his arms. And he held me, and talked quietly, and let me find comfort in his words and touch.
- I needed wiggly, good sex.
- I needed to have him sing to me and stroke my hair so that I would relax enough to sleep.
- I needed to sleep (even though it was restless) next to him.
- I needed to wake up next to him...actually, with his cock telling me it was time to get up...
Mmmmmm. What a GREAT night....
