Sex...
Is very good! I'm 33 weeks pregnant and crave sex... and this is the first pregnancy that I've had that I've still wanted sex this late in the game. I worry a bit about the 6-8 weeks after the pregnancy... for silly reasons.
One of the most beautiful little girls in the world now lives with us and very possibly may be serving my Master along side me. This is a very special girl... one of only two or three women I have ever really had feelings for. We are not new to poly at all... and despite having children in the house we make it work very very well. However, that fact alone is not enough to stop the few insecurities that seem to pop up occasionally. The only possible insecurity I have right now is sex related. I am 33 weeks pregnant, so positioning is hard... spanking is hard, especially because of positioning... and I'm about to have to go almost 2 months with no sex. That part is so hard for me to wrap my mind around. And thats just because I'm envious. I definitely do not expect Master to go months without sex when He has a perfectly willing and able (and did I mention beautiful?) girl available, but I'm not sure how to handle the feelings of envy and being left out. I know I'll get through it fine and everything will be wonderful... but pregnant and post partum women are not rational people...lol. I know that Master and Kit would never ever intentionally hurt me, and I know that I am very loved despite all of my self percieved flaws... so this is mostly just a way to get this fear off my chest. :)
