Hi Team,
Due to some shall we say...not nice.. emails I have gotten from some people, and just some that show me that I was not clear, I would like to clear up a couple points.
First of all, my meeting with Abel and Haron was amazing and while they are currently very upset with me, none of my comments that hurt people (which I realize many of you thankfully didn't read) were regarding them. No one deserved the statements I made hastily and regret saying, but they were not targetted at Abel and Haron, just as a point of clarification for those of you who are like wtf is going on? It was about a party I was invited to by friends of them, who were very nice people, it just wasn't a good situation for me. Mostly my fault.
In regards to my comment about "almost choked" I meant that in the surprised sense, not the gagging sense. I did not know going in, and finding out was surprising/shocking and in mid bite, it made for a rather amusing spectacle. The term was in ""s bc it was what he had said to me after, but not in a negative way. It is not a lifestyle I would want to participate actively in, and not one that I can view easily, but I respect everyones right to have their own lifestyles. I also reserve my right to have my own opinions- I am not trying to make anyone do something they do not wish to do, but I allowed to have my own thoughts.
Currently I have tried to make amends with the people that I hurt, and I have recieved forgiveness from some. I feel horrid about all of this- both that I hurt people and just that there is so much drama going on now in large part bc of me- and I'm not being dismissive in any way of the pain that my words and actions have caused other people. Hate mail is unneccessary.
My main concern and fear at this moment is that the people whose opinion I care most about and whos forgiveness I desperately seek- H and A- will not forgive me, and I will have lost people that I thought could have been great friends and I had a fast connection with.
I need to get back to work. I will update on Michael soon. And again, thank you to those of you who have been so kind to me and have been praying for him.
xoxo
Kelley
Due to some shall we say...not nice.. emails I have gotten from some people, and just some that show me that I was not clear, I would like to clear up a couple points.
First of all, my meeting with Abel and Haron was amazing and while they are currently very upset with me, none of my comments that hurt people (which I realize many of you thankfully didn't read) were regarding them. No one deserved the statements I made hastily and regret saying, but they were not targetted at Abel and Haron, just as a point of clarification for those of you who are like wtf is going on? It was about a party I was invited to by friends of them, who were very nice people, it just wasn't a good situation for me. Mostly my fault.
In regards to my comment about "almost choked" I meant that in the surprised sense, not the gagging sense. I did not know going in, and finding out was surprising/shocking and in mid bite, it made for a rather amusing spectacle. The term was in ""s bc it was what he had said to me after, but not in a negative way. It is not a lifestyle I would want to participate actively in, and not one that I can view easily, but I respect everyones right to have their own lifestyles. I also reserve my right to have my own opinions- I am not trying to make anyone do something they do not wish to do, but I allowed to have my own thoughts.
Currently I have tried to make amends with the people that I hurt, and I have recieved forgiveness from some. I feel horrid about all of this- both that I hurt people and just that there is so much drama going on now in large part bc of me- and I'm not being dismissive in any way of the pain that my words and actions have caused other people. Hate mail is unneccessary.
My main concern and fear at this moment is that the people whose opinion I care most about and whos forgiveness I desperately seek- H and A- will not forgive me, and I will have lost people that I thought could have been great friends and I had a fast connection with.
I need to get back to work. I will update on Michael soon. And again, thank you to those of you who have been so kind to me and have been praying for him.
xoxo
Kelley
