... I won't even go there... everyone who reads this blog already knows the answer to that...lol.
So I have had an interesting few days at work... good interesting, not bad interesting.
I have this friend at work... honestly, before I left to have the baby I didn't know her really well. But for some reason she shared almost all of my cravings with me... lol. Once I got back to work we started to talk more. A few nights ago we were talking in between calls and the subject of our lives came around. For whatever reason, I knew I could trust her, and I ended up telling her (in a private note...lol) about the details of my life. Imagine my shock when she didn't judge me harshly! It turns out that she not only understood, but has experienced life the way we live it. From that moment on, we've passed notes (lol!) almost all shift every shift (its so damn hard having a private conversation in a call center...lol! ).
I can't even express how wonderful it is to have a friend who truly understands. There's nothing to hide and nothing to carefully re-word. I don't have to avoid getting close to her for fear of slipping up, and she understands why I can't accept an invitation to hang out right away. Not to mention the fact that she is very sweet to me, and comes dangerously close to feeding my need for an older female friend, big sister-type.
The biggest bonus of all.... she's even willing to talk to Master and get to know Him... I can honestly say that this is the first time in years I've ever had a desire to really socialize or talk to someone outside the home about our life. I think its because I know instinctively that my secret is safe... and my heart is too.
