Spirituality
The quality or state of being spiritual; in-corporeality; heavenly-mindedness
Heavenly-minded is the perfect example of how spirituality feels to me. When experiencing something physically or emotionally intense, my perception changes. My physical vision changes and my body becomes incapable of feeling physical sensations in the same way it normally does. I become more aware of my emotions and through these intense moments I can cleanse myself of negative energy and negative emotion.
My personal spiritual path runs in many directions. I identify with Christians, I believe in the Almighty Heavenly Father, and I accept Jesus. I identify with Wiccans and some Pagans. I believe in the Great Mother, natural energy paths, empathy, and the many minor gods and goddesses. I also frequently use meditation and the help of spirit guides. Being this eclectic religiously has taught me quite a bit about religious tolerance, and about the many ways people serve their personal Creator. The Almighty Heavenly Father and the Great Mother are my spiritual creators… I view them as my spiritual parents. I strive to please them much like I strive to please Master, but like all children or slaves, I sometimes fall.
In the Bible it is mentioned that the man is the head of household. The women and children in the home are expected to follow in the man’s spiritual path. The man makes the rules and runs his household and he is accountable to no one but God. In our home it is much the same. Because of my beliefs, slavery to me is a completely spiritual thing. By serving my Master, I am serving my Creators. Every time I kneel for Him, I am also kneeling to my Creators. When I do His will, I am also doing the will of my Creators. By living the lifestyle I do, I am serving my Master, my Creators, and in a way, myself.
Part of my spiritual beliefs center around the exchange of energy. In every person, plant, animal, or object there lies energy. This is the life energy, which is vital to everything and everyone. These energy strands, if you will, are also what I feed on during the use of my empathy. Occasionally these energy strands become tangled and out of balance. When this happens, I start to spiral out of control emotionally. I believe that is where I am at right now. I firmly believe that my energy is out of sorts and this is causing me to feel emotionally stagnant and raw. I don’t know what is causing the energy to be out of balance, but I know I need something to help me balance it out.
Master mentioned today that I need a spiritual beating. He said that I need to be broken, forced to cry, loved on, beaten hard and put over, and used hard. I agree with Him because I know that kind of tearing down and rebuilding will sort out my energy strands (for lack of better word) and will allow me to regain my energy balance. I also know that the kind of beating He is describing needs to be more intense than ever and will require a massive amount of aftercare.
When I get a beating like described above, I feel so many emotions all at once. This is sometimes overwhelming because at times like this I have a hard time feeling emotions at all. When I go a period of time feeling emotionally raw or lost like I have been the onslaught of physical sensations and emotions is really hard to take. Most of the time these beatings involve Master saying things to induce emotional pain. The confusion that always seems to result breaks down part of my barriers, and the physical pain of the beating helps throw me over into the spiritual realm. Once I am over into the spiritual realm my energy strands start to untangle themselves and my spiritual eyes are open. I see visions and usually calming scenes. Once the beating stops and I am slowly brought back by Master, it takes a bit of time for me to come entirely back together. The worse the emotional stagnancy is, the harder the beating needs to be.
I have read quite a few sites on the internet where slaves have described feeling the same level subspace that I have experienced, and some even deeper. Some of these slaves view this as an adrenalin rush, others as an out of body experience, and some consider it to be the ultimate level of submission. For me, it is a chance (and often a much needed chance) to connect with my spiritual side. Sometimes I equate it to the Catholic’s version of confession. Most Catholics come out of confession feeling free, relieved, and released. That is how I feel once I completely come down.
My entire life as a slave is a spiritual experience. When I serve my Master I am serving my spiritual needs, and my need to serve. Master gains from this, and I get some of my needs met just by being owned. When Master gives me a task that is hard for me to endure, I am serving Him as well as my spiritual needs. I believe that I was put on this earth to serve my Master, to be below Him in status, and to have my needs be less than His. The few times I have ever come close to feeling like His equal, both my slave needs and spiritual needs suffered. I crave to feel like I am His pet, His property, His slave. I feel whole spiritually and as a person when I am reminded that my wants are privileges that can be taken away. I know I am just rambling now, but it’s hard to put these thoughts down. Spirituality in slavery is something that I feel, and feel most when Master is asserting His authority. I crave reminders on an almost daily basis of my place, and I fear forgetting my place. The rituals we used to have reminded me of spiritual rituals, and fed my need for that. I can feel the energy tides when all is right in my slave life.
The quality or state of being spiritual; in-corporeality; heavenly-mindedness
Heavenly-minded is the perfect example of how spirituality feels to me. When experiencing something physically or emotionally intense, my perception changes. My physical vision changes and my body becomes incapable of feeling physical sensations in the same way it normally does. I become more aware of my emotions and through these intense moments I can cleanse myself of negative energy and negative emotion.
My personal spiritual path runs in many directions. I identify with Christians, I believe in the Almighty Heavenly Father, and I accept Jesus. I identify with Wiccans and some Pagans. I believe in the Great Mother, natural energy paths, empathy, and the many minor gods and goddesses. I also frequently use meditation and the help of spirit guides. Being this eclectic religiously has taught me quite a bit about religious tolerance, and about the many ways people serve their personal Creator. The Almighty Heavenly Father and the Great Mother are my spiritual creators… I view them as my spiritual parents. I strive to please them much like I strive to please Master, but like all children or slaves, I sometimes fall.
In the Bible it is mentioned that the man is the head of household. The women and children in the home are expected to follow in the man’s spiritual path. The man makes the rules and runs his household and he is accountable to no one but God. In our home it is much the same. Because of my beliefs, slavery to me is a completely spiritual thing. By serving my Master, I am serving my Creators. Every time I kneel for Him, I am also kneeling to my Creators. When I do His will, I am also doing the will of my Creators. By living the lifestyle I do, I am serving my Master, my Creators, and in a way, myself.
Part of my spiritual beliefs center around the exchange of energy. In every person, plant, animal, or object there lies energy. This is the life energy, which is vital to everything and everyone. These energy strands, if you will, are also what I feed on during the use of my empathy. Occasionally these energy strands become tangled and out of balance. When this happens, I start to spiral out of control emotionally. I believe that is where I am at right now. I firmly believe that my energy is out of sorts and this is causing me to feel emotionally stagnant and raw. I don’t know what is causing the energy to be out of balance, but I know I need something to help me balance it out.
Master mentioned today that I need a spiritual beating. He said that I need to be broken, forced to cry, loved on, beaten hard and put over, and used hard. I agree with Him because I know that kind of tearing down and rebuilding will sort out my energy strands (for lack of better word) and will allow me to regain my energy balance. I also know that the kind of beating He is describing needs to be more intense than ever and will require a massive amount of aftercare.
When I get a beating like described above, I feel so many emotions all at once. This is sometimes overwhelming because at times like this I have a hard time feeling emotions at all. When I go a period of time feeling emotionally raw or lost like I have been the onslaught of physical sensations and emotions is really hard to take. Most of the time these beatings involve Master saying things to induce emotional pain. The confusion that always seems to result breaks down part of my barriers, and the physical pain of the beating helps throw me over into the spiritual realm. Once I am over into the spiritual realm my energy strands start to untangle themselves and my spiritual eyes are open. I see visions and usually calming scenes. Once the beating stops and I am slowly brought back by Master, it takes a bit of time for me to come entirely back together. The worse the emotional stagnancy is, the harder the beating needs to be.
I have read quite a few sites on the internet where slaves have described feeling the same level subspace that I have experienced, and some even deeper. Some of these slaves view this as an adrenalin rush, others as an out of body experience, and some consider it to be the ultimate level of submission. For me, it is a chance (and often a much needed chance) to connect with my spiritual side. Sometimes I equate it to the Catholic’s version of confession. Most Catholics come out of confession feeling free, relieved, and released. That is how I feel once I completely come down.
My entire life as a slave is a spiritual experience. When I serve my Master I am serving my spiritual needs, and my need to serve. Master gains from this, and I get some of my needs met just by being owned. When Master gives me a task that is hard for me to endure, I am serving Him as well as my spiritual needs. I believe that I was put on this earth to serve my Master, to be below Him in status, and to have my needs be less than His. The few times I have ever come close to feeling like His equal, both my slave needs and spiritual needs suffered. I crave to feel like I am His pet, His property, His slave. I feel whole spiritually and as a person when I am reminded that my wants are privileges that can be taken away. I know I am just rambling now, but it’s hard to put these thoughts down. Spirituality in slavery is something that I feel, and feel most when Master is asserting His authority. I crave reminders on an almost daily basis of my place, and I fear forgetting my place. The rituals we used to have reminded me of spiritual rituals, and fed my need for that. I can feel the energy tides when all is right in my slave life.
