I'M THINKING ABOUT...

SEXUAL THOUGHTS:

Nipple clamps...we might go check some out at the adult store tomorrow.

Watching people having sex.

People watching US.

Giving a long, take-your-time blow job.

NON-SEXUAL THOUGHTS:

I have recently reconnected with an old friend on Facebook. I saw her a couple of years ago at my high school reunion, and in a nutshell, she has had a rough life. Her mom died when she was a kid, her dad is an ass, she had a baby young with a criminal, had another baby a few years later, married him, and he died a few years ago in a car wreck. Tragic. We have woven in and out of each other's lives, but I think of her often.

The point?

She recently remarried. And had pictures on her Facebook. And while the love that she shares with her new husband is clear, what made me warm-fuzzy-hopeful-smiley was the KIDS. I know that two are hers for sure. The other kids are his, maybe one is shared? Not sure. BUT THERE WERE ALL OF THESE KIDS AND THESE HAPPY PARENTS and I loved it. Positively loved it. Lots. Of. Kids.

My second non-sexual thought of the day is that volatile relationships can work. There are times that I think that Steven and I are so fucked up with each other that I could just run away and never look back. And today, today I thought about a couple that is near and dear to me, and they have been for over half of my life. And while fighting isn't good, good couples fight. And when I was in high school, I used to babysit for them. And one afternoon after a particulary heated conversation between them over something lame, the wife and I got in the car with the baby and she tore off down the driveway in her SUV and took out every single light that lined their driveway as we drove off. I remember snickering, being amused. Within minutes she was on her cell phone with her husband, and after a little more bickering all was well and we were buying him a Blizzard at Dairy Queen and heading home. They just celebrated their 20 year wedding anniversary and are one of the most amazing couples ever.

The point?

I would drive over a bunch of lights lining a driveway out of frustration with Steven. However, I would be right back with a Blizzard as well.

I know he feels the same way.