I want them... more than I can even begin to express. I get turned on just thinking about them. More than that though, I crave that kind of pain again. Although this new job has done wonders for my career, it hasn't helped our spanking or sex life any. With all the changes happening around here it has been crazy to say the very least.
I asked Master earlier if we were going to start the nightly spankings again soon, and He said yes! Not only yes, but He said either tonight or tomorrow! That is news I am so excited about. The nightly spankings aren't normally intense, nor are they lasting, but they are wonderful. They are reminders, and sometimes teasers. Of course if there is punishment needed, it happens then too usually.
I love being spanked. I love the pain, the sting, the sensations.... but more than that I love the emotions I feel while being spanked. Sometimes being spanked brings me into a very "little girl" headspace, and that is one of my favorite places to be. I have often thought that I would love to live my life out as an adult little girl. In many ways I do... but with jobs, children, and life in general, its hard for my fantasy to be anything more than fantasy. At home though, I mostly call Master "Daddy" (its easier with the kids around) and we interact very much like Daddy/little girl. Its a part of my life I adore and would never consider giving up.
Which leads me back to my love of spanking. As a little girl, I get spanked often when time permits. I will forever be a little girl.... I am one of those people who have no chance at growing up. I don't want to. I adore the control Daddy has over me, and the structure our life has most of the time. We are going to regain our structure very soon, and the nightly spankings will be the start of that.
So I rambled... a lot... and now am being called to take care of diaper duty... so off I go! My muse is coming back so I expect that posts will be more frequent now!
